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name: Hayley (Ley-chan)
D.O.B: september 30 (just like Masa-kun! ^.~V) 1986
sign: libra
chinese horiscope: tiger
favourate colour: purple
favourate animal: panda, wolf, fox and pheonix... do butterflies count...?
favourate flower: roses
favourate music: X Japan, hide, Yoshiki, Dir en Grey, Gackt JoB, Spiky, Duel Jewel, Luna Sea, Sex Pistols, Linkin Park, HIM, Malice Mizer, yo yo ma ... soooooo many more... JROCK FOR EVERYONE!!!
favourate movie: hmm... too many to pick from
favourate show: Queer as Folk, Family Guy, the Simpsons and the old Bugs Bunny and Tweety Show to name a few
likes: reading, tea, chinatown, Hon Sing CD, fashion, rum, vodka, music, art, philosophy, debate, autumn, snow, weekends, Japanese studies, history, chocolate, vanilla, strawberry, rasberry, butterflies (why, Kami-san, WHY?), string quartets, film... *rambles ever onward*
dislikes: BRAIN HEMMORAGES!!!!! *cowers*, golf (esp. the clubs...), human nature, back stabbers, liars, intolerant fuckers who need to think for themselves, celery, robots, vikings, sarah the bitch who needs to be dead, freezerburnt ANYTHING, when cory pretends to be a robot, 'linolium'...
best friend: Sei-chan



   

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Those days, that seemed about to pass without my noticing, and
These days that seemed likely to be buried without my arriving
Isn't it sad that I can't really return?

I have no confidence and they laugh me off
Light up my heart that looks down
Quietly snuggle near me, warm me please
Kick away the feeling that I seem about to give up
They stare directly at tiny me
Without saying anything please wash my heart

Every day the lost things seem about to become too big but

Isn't it sad that I can't really share?

Isn't it sad that I can't really see the dream?


~ Masa of Spiky, "Confidance" translated by the wonderful individuals of The Spiky Translation Project




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Monday, December 01, 2003
quizzes apleanty

mood| ...
listening to| gardenia - malice mizer






which pleasure are you?
Smirk
You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.

What Kind of Smile are You?
brought to you by Quizilla Sweet Dreams
"Sweet Dreams" (by Eurythmics) Sweet dreams are made of this Who am I to disagree? Travel the world and the seven seas Everybody's looking for something Some of them want to use you Some of them want to get used by you Some of them want to abuse you Some of them want to be abused

Which 80's Song Fits You?
brought to you by Quizilla GAME BOY - Born to Play
A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven albums. Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
individuality. Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature. EXTRA: Your personality type is the only one on
this quiz that would enjoy www.life-
blood.vze.com Check it out!

What kind of girl are you?
brought to you by Quizilla HASH(0x86c21f8)
schizoid

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
brought to you by Quizilla HASH(0x86c21f8)
schizoid

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
brought to you by Quizilla Beautiful
<<>>???What Kind Of Angel R You???<<>>( Anime Pics )

brought to you by Quizilla solitary
Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone. "When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."
The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love. As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and as many say clouds."

What type of eyes do you have?
brought to you by Quizilla Black Goth
You Are A Black Goth. You Are Evil And Only Depend
On Your Self.

What Color Goth Are You?
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Your medieval name is: Magdalen. Out of conformity
and inducing sexual meaning, you're seductive
and passionate, silent until spoken to and only
violet when provoked. Gorgeous and mysterious,
you've got it all.

What is your Medieval name?
brought to you by Quizilla You see the world in Red
Red: Aren't you the romantic? Life is poetic. If you
don't already, write poetry, you're good at it.

Made by
Sara


What color do you see the world in?
brought to you by Quizilla jack
You are Jack Skellington!

Which Nightmare Before Christmas character are you?
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roleplay

What's YOUR sexual fetish?
brought to you by Quizilla You are Linde
Which His Infernal Majesty member are you?

brought to you by Quizilla middle
You are the resentful middle finger.

What finger on Kyo's right hand are you?
brought to you by Quizilla Yoshiki
Yoshiki

Which X-Japan Member Are YOUUU?~!
brought to you by Quizilla Yoshiki
Yoshiki

Which Member of X-Japan Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla silent jealousy! :D
you are SILENT JEALOUSY! yoshiki has a speedo. he
is angsty. he also looks like a chick. are you
confused? pata is confused...he seems to think
he's a mexican woman

WHICH x-japan video areYOU?!
brought to you by Quizilla YxS
You're Yoshiki x Everyone's Soul. DO NOT PASS GO!
DO NOT COLLECT $200!

Which JRocker x Random Object are you?
brought to you by Quizilla


The 'Love hide Too Much?' Quiz : by Cate
Take this quiz!
dedicatedfan
You are a dedicated hide fan! You practically know
everything there is about your pink-haired idol
and possibly more. You've probably been a fan
for a long time, you're VERY enthusiatic about
hide and you never miss a chance on voicing
your fandom (maybe you could be a tad *bit*
obsessive as well...)

What kind of hide fan are you!?
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Posted at 12/1/2003 9:54:01 pm by ley-chan
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Sunday, November 30, 2003
mou~ ....

mood| restless
listening to| blind dance - violet UK



well, lots going on. soooooooo much work... i really have to start focusing on school so i can graduate with all the courses i'll be needing for college.

especially english.

damn requirments....

i really need to get in touch my relatives in japan soon... looks like i'll be writing to grandma tomorrow. i love my grandma.

she encourages me to embrace what i'm passionate about, whereas my oma hopes i fail so i'll stay nice and dependant on her with the added bonus of me not living so far away.

so so selfish.

stupid fucked up home life.

grrr.

i train for my job next friday at 2 (finally).

ooooh, and i finally, after 2 years, bought one of the gravitaion mangas.

must... buy... more....

my grad ring gets here in the next 2 weeks. sweet. it's got a saphire as the stone and it has the chinese phoenix/dragon theme. soooooo pretty. mayhaps i'll put an image in here sometime.

hide's birthday soon. die and hayato's are coming up this month too. so many jrock birthdays...

oh, i have a meeting for the yamate gaikun japan exchange trip soon. yay! i cant wait to go! i'm getting a wee digital camera like josh's for the trip. ooooooooh, i'm so exited! 2 whole weeks in japan! eeeee! with coshiya it'll be even more fun. i'm saving up to buy a hide guitar when i'm there.

19 DAYS TILL X-MAS BREAK! THATS 15 SCHOOL DAYS!

advent starts tomorrow too. i love advent.


eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! japan!!!!!! ^_______________^


well, doesnt look like i'll be able to post as often with my scheduel for the next few weeks... i'll try to post at least once a week but i promise nothing (assuming anyone's actually reading this...) 



here's more quizzes!


You're Kami. You like butterflies and purple. Ahh, so manly!
You are Kami. You may be dead, but you are
certainly not forgotten. You had beautiful
flowing hair and were known as the god of
drums. You didn't particularly like all the
makeup that you wore, yet you loved butterflies
and your favorite color was purple. How manly!

Which Malice Mizer Member Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla masa
You are Masa...You are a pedophile's wet dream,
young enough looking to be boyish, but legal.

Which one of Katie's Asian Hotties are you?
brought to you by Quizilla yoshiki
You are Yoshiki....Could you be any hotter? You
have this perfect balance of masculine and
feminine and GOOD GODDAMN I WOULD ABUSE YOU!

Which one of Katie's Asian Hotties are you?
brought to you by Quizilla Yoshiki
Yoshiki's Ass

Which of My Favorite J-Rocker's Asses Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

You are a very genki and energetic person with a lot of talent. You would pursue your dream tirelessly no matter how hard it may seem. You have a mysterious way of getting people to like you, regardless of their personality. Your emotions can run wild sometimes but you bring happiness and laughter around everyone.

Which Gravitation Character Are YOU?
Take the quiz at Dare to Dream


Your Type is
INFP
Introverted Intuitive Feeling Perceiving
Strength of the preferences %
11 78 33 11

INFP type description by D.Keirsey
INFP type description by J. Butt


Qualitative analysis of your type formula

 You are:
  • slightly expressed introvert
  • very expressed intuitive personality
  • moderately expressed feeling personality
  • slightly expressed perceiving personality
 

:: how jedi are you? ::
I'm a Philosopher/Scientist!



Which Enemy of the Christian Church Are You?


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My personality is rated 33.
What is yours?
quiz by midgetfarm.com


Purple info 
Your Heart is Purple

What Color is Your Heart?
brought to you by Quizilla Pride
Which deadly sin do you represent? (Angel Sanctuary Pics)

brought to you by Quizilla No one better than you!
Which sin are you?

brought to you by Quizilla


and now i'm bored...

ja!



Posted at 11/30/2003 9:15:45 pm by ley-chan
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Thursday, November 20, 2003
grrrr...

damnit, i give up... i'll do this later...

Posted at 11/20/2003 12:21:50 am by ley-chan
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eep!

mood| tired but accomplished
listening to| secret garden - gackt


ah! i posted the wrong address! this is the right one:



Posted at 11/20/2003 12:20:46 am by ley-chan
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

mood| tired but accomplished
listening to| secret garden - gackt


HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOSHIKI SAMA!!!



^.~V


ps - sorry i havent been on much. i've been roleplaying with some friends. wanna see? go look!


http:/blurty.com/users/kao_kao/

Posted at 11/20/2003 12:18:25 am by ley-chan
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Sunday, November 16, 2003
purple! ^.~V

mood| gleeful
listening to| gardenia - malice mizer

konobnwa minna-san! my hair looks so awesome! i cant remember if i wrote this in last time, but i died it this kickass purpley-blacky-reddish colour and it looks sooooooo cool.

4 DAYS TILL YOSHIKI-SAMA'S 38TH BIRTHDAY!!!! ^.^

i found my crinolins so i'm dying them purple ^_^ new skirt for moi!

sei-chan came over last night and we watched my osaka jo hall dir en grey dvd twice and conversed on many a topic. it wasnt a romping good time, per say, but with teh kozi-yu~ki wig-o-doom and daliah the toy hide guitar you cant go wrong! that and, ya know, dir en grey dvd's...

my flu's almost gone! i freaking LOVE the medication that i'm on. well, exept for the nasty side effect of it making my saliva taste like poison... -_-;

i got new toothpaste! its reddish pink and when it goes all frothy it turns light pink! its so cool!

ya know what i realized? despite almost everything i own being purple i have a terrifying lack of purple clothes. i despreately need to rectify that...

...heh...

...'rectify' almost has 'rectum' in it...

school tomorrow...

*le sigh*

alas, here's more quizzes.



die butt
Die!!!

A Dir en Grey quiz Whose ass could you claim?
brought to you by Quizilla die crotch
You got Die!!

A Dir en Grey crotch claim quiz Who'll be sleeping in your bed?
brought to you by Quizilla
Eek! Get away!

What random Dir en Grey thing or happening are you?
brought to you by Quizilla nasty
Nasty

What kind of tongue do you have? (j-rock photo answers)
brought to you by Quizilla


i'm off to watch the simpsons! ja ne! ^.~V

Posted at 11/16/2003 9:09:31 pm by ley-chan
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Friday, November 14, 2003
WHY IS GOD CRAPPING ON MY HEAD?! (that and more quizzes!)

mood| glandular (its not really a mood, but...)
listening to| MALICE MIZER: gackt and kami solo live

FUCKING CRAPTASTIC SHIT!!!! ya know how i was bitching about being sick? i woke up this morning and what had been minor swelling under my jaw yesterday had turned into full blown quasimodo shit! its swollen to the point of no return! the pressure is actually bruising the inside of my throat, meaning eating, breathing, drinking; all that fun stuff that keeps you, ya know, from not being dead? it all feels like there are wee little gwens doing wee little DDR in wee little spice girl hooker boots all over the outside of my throatable tubing whenever i partake in any of said life preserving activities. wanna know why? because, since adults are partially immune to this particular strain of the flu that seems to be invading calgary, the flu that my mom contracted didnt effecter her. surely not! oh no, i got it and since i'm just recovering from a 3 month bout of mono, i got it even worse! so now the glands in my throat are swollen to considerable girth, my nose is like a damn faucet, and i run a nearly 100% chance of getting the mono back.



WHYYYYYYYYY?!!!!! 



*sigh* alas... btw, COSHIYA, IF YOU'RE READING THIS I APPOLOGIZE IMMENSELY FOR NOT RETURNING YOUR MANSON HAT!!! I WOULD'VE HAD I GONE TO SCHOOL TODAY! *sob*


oh, and by not going today i missed a reading exam, helping my group on our hong kong project and not only working on my art project, but not being able to take it home to work on it. also, since i'm sick sei-chan (heheheh... 'syo') and i cant have a romping good time this weekend and its her last weekend before she starts saturday rehersals for west side story. and you need not doubt that it would indeed be romping good.

and i'm sure i missed even more work in english too... *sigh* so much nincompoopery....

...heh...

..."poop"...

on the bright side, my sister's giving me her old cell phone. YAY CONVINENCE! BOO HORRIBLE DEPENDANCE ON EVER OVERWHELMING TECHNOLOGY!


no more frolicking mana... no more!

sease and desist!

SEASE AND DESIST!!!!

LET YU~KI GIVE KAMI THE DAMN FLOWER!!!

DAMN YOUR MELTY SKIN, NAKEDNESS, LACK OF MAKEUP AND HAIR AND OVER ABUNDANCE OF FROLICKING!!!

DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN YOOOOOOOOOOOOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

o.O ...


*twitch*


Hakuei
You are Hakuei! Your middle name is probably Sexy,
right? You've posed nude multiple times, and
sent fangirls scouring the net for your pics.
(not that I'd know or anything...)

Which Penicillin Member Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

we love you so
I am Kami! The drummer and dream of Malice Mizer.
Find out which Malice Mizer member you were meant to be here
by miyabi

  • My #1 result for the SelectSmart.com selector, Which Malice Mizer Member Are You?, is Kami

    I am le ciel!!
    le ciel Don't mess with the nails. They're the latest trend
    in salvational wear. And our costumes are
    beautiful, the song is touching, and there's a
    sweet looking little girl....

    Which Malice Mizer Video are You?
    brought to you by Quizilla kami
    You are Kami's Purple Butterfly Disaster
    You are Kami's purple butterfly distaster. Oh, that
    bright, extremely fake wig! The marabou lined
    wings? And you go out in public like that?

    What Malice Mizer Fashion Blunder Are You?
    brought to you by Quizilla Kaoru Hand
    Kaoru's hands. Ah, artists and their
    hands...always creating. Ever graceful, ever
    gentle. Er...dammit admit it, that's just half
    of you. You have to be mature more that you
    want to, but dammit you want to play with
    things too!

    What Dir en Grey Anatomy Are You?
    brought to you by Quizilla mc17
    What rating is your journal?

    brought to you by Quizilla Princess
    Princess

    Malice Mizer - Moi Dix Mois - Which side of Mana are you?
    brought to you by Quizilla Totally jrock
    I'm TOTALLY jrock. Like. Totally.

    How Jrock are You?
    brought to you by Quizilla dirty things
    You are Gackt and Masa doing dirty things.

    Which Awkward Gackt Moment are You?
    brought to you by Quizilla

  • Posted at 11/14/2003 7:07:40 pm by ley-chan
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    Wednesday, November 12, 2003
    even more quizzes

    mood| insomnia
    listening to| 'Wishes' - Spiky






    eyes
    You are Kyo's eyes!

    What Piece of Kyonatomy are You?




    brought to you by Quizilla sex
    Dirty girl!

    Dir en Grey foreplay quiz
    brought to you by Quizilla


    Congratulations! Your ideal Alpha Male is...

    oh yeah~
    Two words normally come to mind when dealing with the Wild Card Alpha Male--good luck. Generally seen as the 'self absorbed', 'eccentric', and 'highly sexual', this Alpha Male usually isn't associated with monogamy. However, once he does settle on someone they should consider themselves either blessed or cursed. His behavior can often be unpredictable, irrational, and quite bizarre in nature, and as the object of his affection, you will soon find it impossible to escape. And yet, underneath the egoism and the absentmindedness, it is very apparent that it won't do to have you taken away from him, or leave for that matter. Provided you have the patience and endurance to put up with his attitude and appetite, you'll eventually come to find you wouldn't want to anyways.
    Which Alpha Male is right for you?
    Brought to you by Alexandra and Matrim



    so...many...sexy...men... *drools* o.O...

    Posted at 11/12/2003 12:11:21 am by ley-chan
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    Tuesday, November 11, 2003
    still sick...

    mood| craptastic mostly...
    listening to| 'U + k' (or A, depending... -gackt job

    this'll be a quicky but i just thought i'd make an entry any ways. i had such an awesome dream about various jrock painings i love (hide+yoshiki, gackt+masa, shun+hayato, yuya+hayato, die+kaoru...) especially gackt+masa and it was like a terifying music video. terifying and lovely. gackt should SO sing the song "nobody wants to be lonely". he'd be sooooooooooooooo damn sexy. so anyways, he was singing it and all these jrock gods were acting in it and christaina agulera was singing when masa came running up, pulled her hair off, put it on himself and started singing her part. he looked so pretty with her hair! ^_^ <----- MORBID!!!!!! it was super messed up. i called my manager today and it'll be a few weeks before sei-chan and i get our scheduels... *grumble*... government...wear a bag for a shoe.... GOOD(!) music video dream... and, no, i dont care if you mock me for listening to christina agulera (has no idea how to spell her name). i got bored and took gackt quizzes. here's my results...



    My #1 result for the SelectSmart.com selector, Which Gackt Job Member Are You?, is Masa

    MASA
    You are MASA! You are so sexy! Everyone wants to
    hump you...that includes men and women, hope
    you're into it.

    Which Gackt Job Member Are You?
    brought to you by Quizilla

    My #1 result for the SelectSmart.com selector, Which member of Gacktjob are you?, is Masa


     

    I'm not any of Gackt's hairstyles, I'm just Chacha!
    Which Gackt hairstyle are you most like?

    yet another crazy Gackt quiz
    by
    mcvarmazi



    Which Gackt are you most like?
    quiz by mcvarmazi



    I am a GacktJOB fan!
    What kind of Gackt fan are you?
    quiz by mcvarmazi


    Which Jrock Queen Are You? by Youko Triumph





    I'm Kami!

    Take the Malice Mizer personality test by Mania and Dementia!



    Kami
    You are Kami!

    Which member of Malice Mizer are you?
    brought to you by Quizilla You are the beautiful Kami!
    You are Kami!

    Which Malice Mizer member are you?
    brought to you by Quizilla GACKT should suit you!
    GACKT should suit you!

    Which JROCK male should suit YOU?
    brought to you by Quizilla


    heh... i was REALLY bored...

    ja ne! ^.~V

    Posted at 11/11/2003 6:21:43 pm by ley-chan
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    Monday, November 10, 2003
    YAY! A NEW BLOG! ^.~V

    mood|sick... again...  -_-;
    listening to| Gackt, 'Regret'

    hey, anyone! i finally have a blog up that i like! sugoi, ne? i know it kinda sucks since i'm not so great at HTML and so forth but oh well. its not how it looks, its whats on it that should count. so basically, if you're here you get the privlage of reading about my high school drama! oh boy! i'm actually pretty relieved today (despite being sick... AGAIN...) since i now only have to do 45 hours of gym stuff and now not only is the work load cut in half but the class starts in february now and it ends the day before spring break and if my info is correct i'll be leaving for Japan somewhere thereabouts. for those of you who dont know me personaly, i'll explain. next simester i'm taking online gym, japanese language and tai chi aside from working and school and a 2 week exchange trip to japan. i'm so exited! i cant wait to go to the live houses!*crosses her fingers in hopes of seeing Duel Jewel or possibly even Spiky* the hide musium should be so awesome. i already know i'm going to blubber like a ninny when i'm there but i'm sure they get that alot. and my friend cindy might be able to go too! yeah! ^____^ i really hope so since that way i wont be totally alone. we can research some japanese hobos and scream things at them... TROGDOR!!!! soon i'll put my 'web cam' (aka my digivid camera) up and be able to have a picture. that reminds me, i should see if i can get the pictures of halloween from gwendle. we cosplayed as dir en grey. i was kaoru, cindy was toshiya, seirra was kyo and dawn was shinya. gwen was supposed to be die but i dont know what happened with that... we looked so awesome! i cant wait to post the pictures ^_^. god, i wish i had windows in my room. i'm in the basement and, you guessed it, no windows. *sigh* not that its so nice out though... i was watching bugs bunny the other day and it was the one where elmer fudd is a viking with a magic helmet. its set as an opera to 'ride of the valkyries'. ya know, "i will kill him with my spear and magic helmet!" "spear and magic helmet?" "spear and magic helmet!" "spear and magic helmet?" "spear and magic helmet!" "magic helmet?" "magic helmet!" "...'magic helmet'..." "yes, 'magic helmet'! and i'll give you a sample!". and after a brief tryst involving a certain deceptive cross-dressing rabbit, elmer yells "I'LL KILL THE RABBIT!" and starts naming off all these weather storms he's using to try to kill bugs and at the end he yells "SMUG!!!!!!!". that pretty much describes what its like outside; 'smug'. *sigh* so i call my dad to complain about the weather and see what he's been doing and as soon as i start bitching about how ugly it is outside he ever so  discretely reminds me that he's going to hawaii for christmas.

    boo-urnz, i say.

    boo urnz...

    anyways, thats about all i have to say for now since i have to save some stuff from my computer. i'm doing yet another system restart on the chunck of shite since yet again, it's riddled with viruses. a word of advice, NEVER BUY FUCKING ANYTHING FROM FUTURE SHOP! ESPECIALLY THEIR COMPUTERS! since i bought this one i've had nothing but trouble. it broke after 2, maybe 3 months of having it so we had to send it back to the manufacturer who then sent us a replacement and, true, it isnt broken but i have to do these restarts once every few months. they SUCK! i loose all my data unless i burn it off and all my settings are restarted. including the internet which i have to manualy reinstal. *sigh* damn crap computer. it could be worse... i could have a hangover like sei-chan... heheheheh...GOOD(!!!) times... *eats beans*

    and no one but our little group will ever understand that referance... *sigh*

    oh well! ja ne! ^.~V

    Posted at 11/10/2003 2:28:42 pm by ley-chan
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